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=) thanks everyone. It really means a lot that you all are so supportive to a complete stranger that you've never even see. Seriously, God bless all of you.
A Phlebotomist is someone who draws blood and in some cases prepares it for processing. Me and her went through the training course together.
I have been seeing my councilor since I was 17. She really has help change me for the better. I really did use to be a complete jerk at one point in life. A few months into my relationship with the girl I love, she told me about how she had an eating disorder. I searched around for the proper help but ended up taking her to see my councilor in the end. I tried to help her mom by paying for half. And over time it worked too. I trust my councilor very much. And she has expressed that it's her job to help the needs of the individual person in each session, not play as my match-maker. I understand that, and don't see it as a conflict of interest.
I meant no offense in saying it's wrong to date an older person. The man she is with now is 11 to 12 years older than her. She had expressed before that I was a bit scary for her at first, being only 2 to 3 years older. I only suggested that because it's not like her to do something like that. It's very much against what her values used to be. And it seemed to happen so quickly. Please understand I meant no offense. But yes, I have dropped the matter. There is nothing I can do to control the action of others. Attempting to do so or believing I can is ignorance.
I am just very confused and hurt on so many different levels. I don't know what to think or do. About her or myself. Yes it's easy for me to go out and distract myself and have sex with every girl friend she knows and my ex's and that hot thing that works in McDonalds, but I won't do that. It's weird, but I kinda want to suffer right now. It's like that line from The Offspring song "Self-Esteem"
"...the more you suffer, the more it shows you really care...right?"
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